The War Room

My horoscope today said, its gonna be all smiles. Well admitted that you can't always trust the planets to predict your future. However for some bizzare reason. It seemed to come true. First, the work load wasn't so massive, it was quite fair and managable (But I better not mention this- or else I might just get flooded from this time forward - its a curse).
The best part- as I was just about to head to a loo, getting ready for the War Room. My colleague said- As he won't be around upstairs, we could do it just sitting at the cube.
Okay The war room. This is one lengthy cleansing process nothing too spiritual but when it comes to our site clean-up process its nothing less than one either. Well , its not such a bad project but leaving everything behind and for two straight hours of grilling is at times not fair especially during those days, where you barely even get to breath. Still having said that there are some factors that I look forward to this projectand they are as follows:

• Walking up to the third floor (from the ground floor). I take this as a part of my work out process. By the time I reach the destination, I almost go out of breath. Come on...lady Our old house in kathmandu was seven-storey tall...compared to that, it should have had been a piece of cake.
• I look forward to contributing to this project that inturn would benefit all the Dynamics partners all over the world..ha-ha...yeah right like there are billions of them scattered around.
  

Anyway, damn,,theres so much to do...shall continue next time..if I feel like it.

The night won't see its daylight

After a very long time I am feeling some kind of calmness that I needed so badly in my life. I wanted to be very very much grounded. Feel the Earth and not really fly to touch the sky anymore.I just wanted to be the simplest one. I just wanted to get to the basics. With no big dreams to fullfill- no fancy life to live, even if it meant trying to do good all the time. I just wanted to be in touch with the raw real me. Like never before.
This week has been the most toughest one for me emotionally. The workload at the office was lowest. I was finally breathing a sigh of relief. Unaware of the harshness this week had instored for me.I won't be going into the details but I learnt my lesson. I knew this had to happen one day. Although I was really saddened by this event I am glad it happened.
Nomatter how well you do in your life, its really important to feel little insignificant at times.Its important as a human being cause you are not God to make everything right every other second. You might be the most powerful one on earth. But do you really hold the strenght to make things perfect all the time?. Well I don't, and I realized that this week. Nomatter how high my hopes are I know I do not have what it takes to cure all the illness of the world. And I so desperately seeked to get accquainted with this fact.
At work I listen to top-40 hits all the time, not that I am a big fan of it, its just cause,its right there and its hip, catchy, which instantly refreshes your mind. But ofcourse never becomes your most favourite kind of all time. Its just for the instantliberation.
I think thats when I felt like listening to Nepali songs, some old classics. But to my bad,even Murchunga.com wasn't working. Then I switched to some Hindi movies. and I was hell tired of all the crapy commercial hindi movie songs.
But today- on Friday...It just miraculously came to me 'Is raat ki Subaha nahi'- I wanted to listen to the songs of this movie for a long long time. However, I never really managed to remember the name of the movie. and today it just happened. It was as if god just bestowed it on me. Like he just fed the words in my mouth. ANd I must say, thats all I really needed to console myself.
I must have had been a kid when this movie was released. Have never watched it but one song just grabbed my attention since the beginning like anything. And now reaching the 24th year of my life, I am listening to the song- and plus two more of the same movie. Realized its Sudhir Mishra's film. WHo would have thought I would grow up to be his big fan. I really respect the kind of movies he make, I like that genre.
Anyway, I think thats all I have to say today. An introspective journey is all I need right now. To reflect back,calm down, and just be me all through - the same oldpainstakingly shy, excessively-introvert, the quiet me ...ha-ha..