I eat, drink and sleep movies

Last Friday I watched the movie called 'Dus kahaniya'. There were a total ten short movies inside a big one. Out of those ten a couple of them were really good and the rest were a total shit. It was funny...this woman is just a second away from getting married and her father asks her if she is in love with someonelse..and that she can walk away from the marriage and blah blah blah...without even showing any fking serious affair she developed at the background. What probably the director wanted to show was the twist of fate between the two lives....but not so well projected nor was it well written at all. It was stupid. Anyway atleast I thought the very first story of infidelity was really well executed. From camera movement, to editing to everything except the story was nothing new but as it was well directed and equally well presented, that story did stand out from the rest. Another piece that I liked had a social message attached to it about religious hatred and racism. That one wasn't so bad either. In mere ten minutes the film was able to leave a strong social imprint which ofcourse seven others could not. I thought that was quite applaudable. Plus the one titled "Gubaare" (Balloon) was okay too atleast it wasn't as bad as the other ones. The rest of the stories besides those three, I thought was a total waste of time and money.
We also happened to watch 'I am legend' (the movie about human beings turning into mutants because of the drug experiment that would almost erase the entire human civilization from the Earth) Friday. I thought Will Smith just nailed the character and the direction was superb. The movie succeeded in keeping me hooked till the finish but one thing that ruined the moment was the abrupt end. The movie was going so well ...until the end...though must say it was quite a filmy predictable end . The movie could have had been extended a little longer.Or else it was all fine. For a movie to be called good enough its very very important that its well directed, well edited and well executed eventually. And ofcourse, theres no way we can afford to let the actors compromise in their work. After all they add life to the movie.

Movies are the medium to convey the social messages, to depict the truth, to entertain and take us away to the world unknown. One has to be extremely talented to put up a show thats worth a watch. I've always been a movie buff and good movies always make me feel good. Its like having sex. And everytime I watch a good one and especially if its related to real human story I am always inspired to create my own version. I think thats what a movie should be able to do. It should be able to move you, make you think, it should be able to touch you. I know it would take so much of time, effort and resources from our side. And considering the deteriorating condition of Nepali Movies I don't see getting much help from that side of the filmy world. Once I compile the story, find the director and excellent cameraman with tons of helpers lets see...hope to do it someday. I hope to tell the story of our generation. Not the one older or younger but of my own generation that I am aware of ...that I feel...I want to capture the dreams, the thoughts, the belief and everything that represents us!

Just another day

I just happened to be listening to this song - Mukti and Revival's titled :'Jiune aash'.
Na ta Kunai yehaa Aash chha
Na kasai ko yehaa baas chha
Kewol marna laagi rahekooo...
Nisaasiyeko Saas chha

Suna saana raat parchha
Zindagi lai rityauna Gar (khojchha)
Na ta mann bahalaune kunai (eshara/saath/saamaan??) chha
Na ta malai baaachneeee...................Kunai....rahar...
Kaadaa le bijhe ko ghau chha
Yehaa sabai thau biraano... chha
Na ta aafule dekheko kunai thaunai chha
Na ta kunai yehaa mero nau chha

Na ta kasai ko bolne saas chha
jiunu kasai ko aas chha

Suna saana raat parchha
Zindagi lai rityauna garchha
Na ta mann bahalaaune kunai ?? chha
na ta malai baachneee kunai...rahar
kaadaa le bijheko ghau chha
yehaa sabai thau biraano ...chha
Na ta aafule dekheko kunai thaunai chha
Na ta kunai yehaa mero nau chha

Jiunu kasaiko aasai yehaa

Fun and no Fun

Its been a hell of a week...infact weeks..during Thanksgiving we went to colorado, Grand Juction and vegas it was fun. Predominantly for the fact that I found Colorado an exact replica of Nepal. It was like going back home. It was beautiful...the winter had already infected the landscapes of Colorado, still the place looked absolutely breathtaking. Perhaps it was the resemblance to Nepal that brought me closer to this place. Not that I was there for the first time but it sure was my first experience witnessing the hills. Its sad how us in Nepal take hills and mountains as the barrier to development. But I was amazed to see how Americans managed to build the road over the hills, the tunnels through the moutains making the ride even mroe interesting. I wish...I just wish things were better in our country. Well nothing much is happening work is okay, but my cube sure is looking better..with pictures sent in by Suraj. He is a sweetheart. I thought he would never send it to me but he did. Pictures of Patan Dhoka, Swoyambhu Nath and Pokhara (I think). They have added so much of life to my dead cubicle. And since I printed pictures 8 by 11. it looks simply awesome. It feels like I'm looking out the window and there it is..Patan Durbar square right infront of my eyes absolutely beautiful.

The times they are a changing....

The first thing that I noticed early morning in the news today was the plethora of new demands made by the Maoists (again!!!- how obvious could that have had been???) then followed one of the leaders of CPN-UML who supported maoists to fulfill their demands that entailed full PR based elecion , delcaration of a Rebublic Nepal and what nots. Yes one of the leaders admitted they made a mistake in supporting maoists as they didn't bother to first examine the cause and effect of maoists' demands first.That was disgusting, shameful, stinking and everything bad....it was a shock. At a time like this when the country is treading in the path of hell....they didn't bother taking anything seriously. They didn't bother finding out the 'cause' and 'effect' like what the fk was that???that was a total crap. I was deeply saddened and couldn't read any furthur..and kept digging for something positive to read. But ofcourse who was to get anything positive at a time like this..where the crime rate is swelling like anything. The future of the country leading anyhwere but forward. Its a shame, its heartbreaking, its sad and I can't even measure the depth of the sadness. Theres so much in us oozing to come out....encoouraged to give. Theres so much of knowledge and theres so much of drive in us to change... among us the young nepalese who wants to spread, utilize and bear the fruit. But alas...the pillar that holds the country together itself is getting weaker everyday. Maoists demands keep getting longer, the inabilities of the politicians keep dragging the nation behind. and theres so much to mention here...totally out of place. The garbage piling up in the streets, heard they're going to begin the loadshading again (I wonder if it has already begun). Also heard the NAC is going to cease its international flights (i think) for the reasons all toooo well known to us. I don't know where should I seriously begin.....but somehow I feel..it doesn't seem to matter to people living in ktm. Regardless of whatever's happening..the urbanites seem to be too busy with their work complaining once in a while...may be..the fashion chart escalating big time...hitting pubs, drinking and partying. I'm not sure how its like now to be living in ktm anymore though...so I could be wrong. But in one way ..its good to see people simply moving on with their life too. Where as I seem to be dreading the future. I plan to go back home soon and this is what I have to read everyday. Things never falling into places. and then I wonder - how would it be like to live in a place that defines present kathmandu...will I be happy with the decision I made ...I would definitely treasure the moment- socially but I doubt it about my professional life. We'll see what happens...

and from all this chaos I move on to a story....arriving all the way from Russia. The country once upon a time was in a brink of extinction....how it managed to stay put and its back on the world stage to re-prove its state. Stronger than ever....but the uncertain future still floats around. What would happen after Putin ?. We are just all too familiar with Putin's clever Public Relations tactics...his propaganda infecting each nooke and corner of Russia...which didn't seem to work that bad either. After all the country does seem to be moving forward even with a sheer extremisim hidden behind Putin's happy face. From 2000 to 2007 Russia sure has come a long way ... but what would happen after election would be something interesting to ponder upon. and here too we'll see what happens. And whatever is the case I must admit ...I am an optimists after all that has happened in Nepal. I still choose to believe in my dreams, I still have the hope of things going right, I still dream of the old Nepal...that might not have had been any better but atleast was politically stable...(if not completely).
So thats how my story for Nov.16, 2007 (Friday) goes. Glued to my laptop stuck in the office cubical, with ultra-less work load...I have the time to surf around and get to know the world a little closer and better.
and yes....being an optimists as well as a realists I can't help but agree with Bob Dylan..all the more again.-
Come gather 'round people
Wherever you roam
And admit that the waters
Around you have grown
And accept it that soon
You'll be drenched to the bone.

If your time to you
Is worth savin'
Then you better start swimmin'
Or you'll sink like a stone
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'.
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come senators, congressmen
Please heed the call
Don't stand in the doorway
Don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt
Will be he who has stalled
There's a battle outsideAnd it is ragin'.
It'll soon shake your windows
And rattle your walls
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come mothers and fathers
Throughout the landAnd don't criticize
What you can't understand
Your sons and your daughters
Are beyond your command
Your old road isRapidly agin'.
Please get out of the new one
If you can't lend your hand
For the times they are a-changin'.
The line it is drawnThe curse it is cast
The slow one nowWill later be fast
As the present nowWill later be past
The order isRapidly fadin'.
And the first one nowWill later be last
For the times they are a-changin'

Static

I simply hate this hangover.....the plan was to just sit at home and surf all day. But the moment one of my friends gave a call to have a momo fiesta ....I knew it was not going to be the same. And come on Life!....I don't even do the hard drinks...it was just a little more than a couple of beers come on...... I know I am having Sinus infection...thats why I just cannot afford to have anything cold or anything for that matter that would worsen the infection. I better go to the doctor and just killl the damn bacteria.....what an ass.....

So I am not completely myself today....all thanks to the spining head...but I must thank my computer for being so generous to let me have this oppurtunity to blow away. Technically, I'm in a very static position as I will be doing nothing much today....but then why am I writing this one...aa...well.....I was jst going through Natalie Portman's writings and...just realized ...that its been perhaps more than weeks that I have been keeping myself far away from all that is happening not neccesarily around me but certainly that I am connected to.

The current happenings of my country sadens me the most. And theres so much I want to do. Infact the circumstances even urge me to quit my job. Leave everything behind go back home for good. and just be able to do what I could do to the best of my abilities.

And whatever Natalie had mentioned in her article is exactly what I believed in and still do. I thought it was some kind of sign for me to pay attention again, look back and not just wonder but do something about it.

She said something like - It's not worth living if you don't feel that you can change something.

And I so totally agree. I feel its important for people to know their own worth including others. Also try to understand the worth of their own doings. its easy to miscalculate and lead everything to ruin. But to have that guts to make a choice that leads to a better tomorrow is perhaps the toughest. But thats what makes the everyday life worth living.

She's been associated with FINCA (Foundation for International Community Assistance) for quite sometime. An organization that helps women to be self-reliant all over the world, supporting them to start their own business to earn their own bread and butter.

And what I also found out today - that Natalie Portman originally hailed from Israel. That was interesting to know.

One particular phrase that she had mentioned ..that I would like to jot down here is "It's impossible to know the outcome of anything: You have no idea whether the life you impact will go on to bring peace to the Middle East or will go blow up a building. All you can do is act with the best intention and have faith."

And I have that faith in me too that one day things will change for better and I know for sure I will be a part of that change.

At the end all that I have to say is; words can change the way you think or the way you perceive things. And how you originate these words are through the experiences of ones own life. Natalie went through that phase and something must have had urged her to express what she was working on and eventually let people be accquainted with it.

So there's certainly no conclusion to what I'm writing I do hope and pray for things to get better. It takes years to maneuver the country back to its normal state from the one going through the conflict. For me it has become a matter of patience, a matter of lets-see-what-happens. And once again as I head home (pretty soon) I don't expect any miracle to occur right away but sure will be the change agent working on to bring back the lost smiles in all the Nepalese faces.

We'll see where it goes..........

For no reason at all......

Well the reason I'm creating this blog...well honestly...not because everyone is doing it...but because...for no reason....for all that oes into my head I thought why not spill it all out. This blog was created like years ago...apparently I never bothered to remember my password. And while I was going through some of my friends blog. Me too felt like just typing away just anything and everything. And as I was trying to create one, the system didn't let me - saying the email address already exists in the system. thats when I kept trying 100s of password-possibilitites. and One eventually came true. And my next login...well might never happen again..unless I bother to create a complete new one....coz I might as well forget the password again.